I admit, I honestly don't know how this (creating new post) works.  Learning as I go...  I assume this will add....   I have another blog called, "Change is good" if you want to look at it.  :-)   I'm kinda working my way between the two, seeing that you are reading this one and wondering which one fits best.

The other one is about dance lessons I am taking, and learning to play the guitar.   Its there for you if you would like...  :-)

Today is Wednesday.  Yesterday I did Bilos Meals On Wheels, messed around, practiced and practiceed guitar while Mom cooked.  Helped her A LITTLE.  Not enough and Then went to lighting practice at church.  I'm better at this than I used to be  - lighting.  

I went to be and dreamed about...dying and a game show?  I have been going to bed and waking up wondering how I could make this day, the one I wake up to, more special than the one yesterday.  

I bought a guitar.  That changed things a bit.  And  i'm taking dance lessons in Hartwell, Ga.  That changes things a little.

September 26
Today is towards the end of September.   It feel like almost the end of the year, like the earth IS flat and we, or I will be falling off of it.   October spells (I almost said smells and that's kinda how I feel  lol) my Birthday and I will be 55.   How did I get here.  Never did I imagine that I would get to the old age of 55.   It does happen.  I can't believe it.   I was 16 once, thinking that 27 was old and 67 was almost dead.  It isn't anymore.  For alot of people it actually is!   I'm so glad to be alive and now more than ever I take it as a .....gift?, is that the right word, ....as a wonderous event, to be alive.  A miracle.   A thing I really don't even understand.   "What is REALLY going on here that I am alive, here, in this yard, in this house, on this ball spinning in space, breathing this air, when I might not be under different circumstances.

I wrote my very intelligent cousin a message this morning.   This was it:    I wanted him to know, as I want you to know, that I did it.  I Nutribulleted.   The reason, if it matters to you, that I say I did it, is because I have to actually DO action, something to get this done!   Here's the msg because I like to read it.

Good morning! I Nutribulleted today. I put in a half pear like you suggested, kale, red and yellow peppers, pumpkin seeds, sesame seeds, couple strawberries, 3 or 4 blueberries. It was barely drinkable like Becky says, LOL, but then after I drank a bit I put in some honey. That helped too. Thanks for the suggestion. Also, thanks to you, I have gas. LOL But I feel great! Also ran a mile. Hope you guys have a great day! Really enjoyed the time with you and kids and dinner, thank you. I decided, I jokingly and laughingly say, not to put in on FB. lol Take care. Hope you are getting ready to go to the beach! I am happy for you ...and jealous. LOL I know you will have a blast.

I have a friend who will be reading my blog tonight for the first time. I am a little nervous about that.  You know that we all want to please someone.  

My nephew is probably coming over to look at the films we made of our cousins wedding (I almost said "funeral"!  lol) the other day.   I hope he finds something that he really likes in the film, because he did half of it.   He has a "responsibility" in it now.   At least that's what I want him to think.  I'm sure I can edit most of it to look good.   But he got excited about the filming (after his initial fear of making a mistake) and then he got into it and was filing everything.   Sure there is alot of footage there...   Lol

Time to go and get busy finding work.  Do you have an opportunity for me?

Musings

(This is from the other day.   I wish I had dated it.  Do you know how to find out what the date was that I originally wrote this?  Please put it in the comments if you do.  Thanks)   I was musing and did not know how to work this program, so I didn't save... Hope you enjoy.  This is probably more information than either of us wants today, but here goes... Ok, so you’re born naked and as you live you begin to discover what you like and don’t like. You’re "pre-packaged," and what YOU have to do is “discover your strengths, talents, likes”, right? So, you live your life doing this, and you pick up information, and then with experiences you pick up wisdom. Then you die, taking nothing, NOTHING of this physical world with you. ...BUT, doesn't it makes sense that if you came in with stuff already in you that you go out with that stuff in you? => hence, an afterlife.

Aristotle(?) said, "You don't learn.   Teachers help you to remember what you already know."   That's how you learn.



As an acquaintance of mine once told me, "Regrets are futile emotions."   Regrets are me saying to myself,  (crying, whining, sad to myself)  "How can I go back and change that to something I think I want."



Forgiveness is one of the most  healing things I do for myself.   Forget the other person!   This is self-help!   LOL  As one person said, "forgiveness doesn't mean you say it didn't happen.  It means you let go of the debt the other person has, to make it right.  It also lets it not affect you anymore."   It just becomes, "It is."

Our history is told in stories from ages old.   Films are just a contiuation of that.  Films, movies are very important to us becasue the futher our stories.   That's why experimental films dont go very far?   Yes, they are art, but stories are what matter to us.   Others' lives, our lives, relating to ohters lives.   Stories are threads that hold together all of our lives?


August 28th, 2014 at 9:59 p.m.  (more dramatic than "10:00 p.m."  :-)
I want you to know that I'm glad you saw this page and it's posts.  

I just saw Julia & Julie - a movie.  A very good movie, I was surprised to say, in my opinion, only because the title (titles are important) didn't suggest that to me - that it would be moving.  (Moved me to write tonight!).  But it was moving because, as I am looking for in my life, and you may be in yours at some time (maybe even now), I am looking at how to be true to myself, to find my place in this world in my occupation, filming or otherwise.  Filming, I feel pretty sure right now.  (How can one NOT know this...  :-)

Ultimately, like you, I want to make a difference, a significant difference in this world.   I know I have a finite amount of time.  Apparently everybody dies and since I'm on that road I'd like to leave it better than I came in and I'd like to prepare (assume more responsiblilty) for what comes next.  I'm "sure" something comes next.  Are you?  :-)